100602

若我在此時告訴你，我的心是如此的不安，告訴我你的想法。

受了一篇文章的影響，有種被拉囘現實的想法。

我活在現實，在網上尋找虛擬，偶爾地沉迷，卻讓我忘了原來這世界依舊現實。

儅你想著：啊！我願抛開所有，只爲了夢，無所謂是怎麽樣的夢。

現實卻告訴你：你拿什麽來圓夢？

儅你爲了夢，一次次的向現實低頭，那是否想過，你或許偏離你的夢越來越遠了？

有些夢，以爲是完美的。

儅時間慢慢流逝，你開始慢慢醒悟，夢，不過是自己編織得太過於童話。

儅童話不再照著你預想的，心開始怕了，慌了。

到最後，接受了。

唯一不同的是，你或許依舊念著那童話，卻也知道童話不再了。

那麽過往的美好也就成了回憶。

回憶，多漂亮的畫面；多傷人的紀念……

今夜，感傷了。

深夜，清醒了。

醒來，地球還是轉動，而我依舊繼續生活。

晚安。

100601

I was reading a passage, saying sending a friend at airport.

Hahaha.. Guess what did I recall?

Four of us woke up early in the morning, 6am!! OMG~!

I didn't even tell my mom that I will be going out because mom was asleep before I could tell her. HAHA..

It is a memory, nice memory.

Although we didn't really wanna make her cries, but at least we expect she shall cry!

HAHAHA.. At last, she didn't..

But I know she was very touch that time..

Such a crazy actions, went to her house which is located far from the city just to say Byebye.

Driving the car for one hour without knowing destination, keep on chit-chatting.

And finally, back to home and slept for 4 hours and then waited at the airport for almost 2 hours just to surprise her.

Miss ya always, you know who are you~ XD

100319

Finally there is a concert, of Super Junior.

I have no strong mind of going, but I know I wish to see them.

I miss them a lot as a singer, not gag men.

But I miss TVXQ more.

I saw a post saying that 4th album of Suju will be released in May.

I think of TVXQ, again.

I was thinking, if there is no law suit, this year might be their 6th album.

Sometimes, I blamed the law suit.

But I know it was actually a good decision.

This is why I always remind myself to support their decision and trust them without any doubt.

I'm tiring of doing homework everyday but I have no choice.

I'm gonna mastered all the units, or else I will regret, for sure.

I'm praying, praying to have a good study mode.

And I know I will. Thanks God!

I'm just too stressed sometimes.

Give me a break!

100317

It's been long time for me since January to blog.

I have a fun and enjoyable trip in Hong Kong with my FAMILY, a gang of friends from Tawau!!

I appreciated it very much as I don't know when will be the next trip with them..

The photos were uploaded in facebook..

It's crazy, man.. over 1000 photos..

I can't even pick some nice to upload..

Just pressed CTRL + A, dragged them all into an album.

I have a lot of fun during the pass holiday..

It doesn't boring at all.

Almost out for tea for everyday or night..

You can't imagine that even you only out for "yamcha", it costs you hundreds ringgit!! HAHAHA..

But yet, I gained a lot of happiness.

It is not countable by using money..

I reached Miri three weeks ago.

I moved to new house but I did not tell my dad and mom.

Why?

You'll know how much you need to explain to them once you do so.

This is why I didn't tell them.

My expenses increased but I gained more than before? Might be.

You know what??

My timetable is totally different with my friends at first.

I keep on changing till I still can maintain some of my units with 2c2 but no more with my housemate, Twins and Sibu girls.

I'm quite upset at first, frankly speaking (Haha, does this phrase sound familiar??).

Feel a bit lonely, and I don't know who to rely sometimes.

I know it's my own problem.

And I didn't let the problem becomes bigger and bigger as I know it's actually not a big deal.

As long as I'm still able to study and meet with them always, it's still so good, right?

Seriously, I feel so good right now.

I know more people in my class, maybe have to thanks to Ms. Sia(Finance 215)?

Haha, no wonder she will says Lover Her or Hate Her. Hahaha..

I have a lot of weekly assignments that I always couldn't finish on time.

Frankly speaking, I am much more hardworking than previous semesters..

Even my friends shocked when they see me doing the works.. haha..

I know that I was too lazy before..

Thanks God?

Thanks God. =)

100131

It's the last day of January.
How do you feel?
I am wondering how could the time flies without noticing me.
Maybe I should say that I didn't appreciate time.

I feel so pressure, honestly.
There is a trip waiting for me but I didn't finish my study.
How could you study with an exciting mood?
While exciting, you have the tension with you..
I feel so hard...

I'm not in a good mood, obviously.
Maybe it's because I still have to study before trip?

I didn't complain much about it because it's my fault.
Jason keep on concerning about my study.
He scare that I have no enough time to study.
Haha.. I remember Yuhmiin said that we are the same type of human which is last minute person.
But, obviously she forgets that I'm not as smart as her.

Maybe I was smart before.
But I know that I'm not as smart as the old time.
My brain is losing its function..

I'm afraid of somethings.
But since haven't been checked, I have no idea about it. lolx..
Don't worry, I'm strong enough to face anything, I think. XD

100129

How would you describe me?
Haha.. I created a secret group for my Tawau friends..
You know, we are just too friend to be like a family..
The description about me make me laugh, it's just so true..
But, how would others think of me?

Here is the description from my Tawau's gang:
Rebellious figure that always believes in her state of mind.
Cold, evil-eyed, Hilarious at times, Gets the point.
Someone who is actually aware during various situations.
Facebook Freak / Stalker.
Tries to make her statements Points.

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You know what?
I always heard that I am a good listener or good adviser or good observer.
But this is the first time(?) I heard this kind of description..
Haha.. So, how's about yours to me?

100116

淩晨兩點鈡不睡覺，幹嗎去了？
呵~就是在電腦面前，看看video，打打字~

我現在人在西馬。
天亮做的事不再是睡覺或是玩電腦。
猜也猜得到是逛街啦~~哈哈哈……

滿期待明天的。
黃穎敏特地過來找我，陪我。
還蠻感動得啦~
她確實可以不必這麽麻煩坐那麽久的車，然後就爲了和我見上一面，然後第二天就回去。
這樣的朋友，哪裏找？？

我記得Aubery說過我很保護朋友。
事實上，我知道我是，只是從朋友聽見，還蠻奇怪的。
哈哈哈……沒什麽意思，只是不習慣吧！

你說，如果我沒了朋友會怎樣？
我無法想象，也不想想像。

我喜歡現在，知道嗎？
你看我在美裏的朋友多麽愛我（哈哈哈……承認吧！），當然我也愛她們啦！
沒有她們，我實在不懂美裏的生活該怎麽過。

你看在斗湖。
我過得多麽逍遙快活。
時不時喝個茶，看場電影或者兜個風……爽啊！
所以，你們都要乖乖呆在我身邊哦！
不然，我會傷心死的！=)

100107

I am missing someone a lot, can you guess who is it? XD
The whole day, I couldn't stop thinking of her and I know why.
I dreamed her in my dream actually and this caused my missing to her. =p

Didn't meet with her for one year.
I'm not sure of how is her appearance changing to, but I know she is still the one I know.
Thanks to the one who created phone so that we can contact with each other. =)

I received a call from her just now.
She told me that she isn't in a good mood.
I couldn't help much after I heard the reason.
What I can do is just pray and care for her.

Is she crying on the other side?
I couldn't get know.
I just feel like she was about to cry?
Hope that I guess wrong.
However, she has the reason to cry but I know she wouldn't cry in front of me, seldom.

Girl,
I miss you much.
Take care of yourself always, kay?
Everything will be alright soon. =)

100101：Two Thousands Ten!!

It's brand new year!!!
See my date there: 100101..
Hahaha.. how nice is this number, maybe we should go and buy 6d? lolx..

It wasn't as fun as what I thought in passing my last day of 2009.
Anyways, I was still with my friends although just few of them.

I was happy that I received quite numbers of greeting messages.
Especially from my best friends.. haha..
And when I received the message from YingMin and Roland, I shown to Eva.. I said: See, I got their messages~ hahaha..
I know it is childish, but I'm happy in playing it cause the reaction of Eva was so funny..
She even wanted to send message to them and ask them to greet her! lolx..

Hey, it's no more two double O nine..
Here comes two thousands ten!!
Looking forward on the brand new year..
What's the difference? Yea~ we are getting older.. hahahaha

Anyways,
I miss you, to the one who missed me.
Happy New Year, guys and girls!! XD

091231

I have to say goodbye to 2009, finally..?

I was listening to 2ne1's "I don't care".
A question comes into my mind again: Can I really don't care?
Lolx... What should I care, what shouldn't I care?
Can anybody hints me? =)

Fine.
I couldn't get the answer now.
I wish I don't have to think more and enjoy my life without these nonsense.
Get off from my life, I wish but I know it wouldn't.

*Smile
Hey~ cheer up.
It is not a big deal if it didn't meet your expectation.
It's really fine for me, anything.
Whatever~ I can only know what's going on in the future~~

Wooo...
I should think for my trip!
KahYee is joining us to Hong Kong!!
It's really make me feel so good!
I wish to always be with her when she needs a friend.
And this is one of the reason that I invite her to come with us..
I am really looking forward on our trip now!!
Wow~~~
All of my best friends are with me next year, the HK trip, the KK trip and maybe my birthday? =)

You don't know how I wish all of my best friends would celebrate my birthday with me but not early celebration or just a birthday song and message.
I remembered I said to Grace that I wouldn't cry during my birthday but in fact, if really all of you are celebrating with me, I couldn't make my promise of not dropping tears.. XD

I miss you guys, really!
Grace, I miss the time I quarrel with you. XD
Mich, I miss the time I bully you. XD
Nyiam, I miss the time you laugh with us. XD
Siew, I miss the time you always "hehe" there.. XD
Jac, I miss the time you always come to Senadin and accompany me. =)
Crys, I miss the time talk with you until we fall asleep at midnight. =)
Kee, I miss the time we always go out with Hsia. =)
Hsia, I miss the time we chat a lot and sharing many things with each other. =)

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Goodnight all...
I am waiting for a reply that wouldn't get.
Hehe.. anyways, sweet dream~

And, BYE YA 2009!!