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我突然想起07年的某一夜。

那次大概是我喝酒喝得最開心的一次。

幾乎是放肆地喝啊！

喝了，我還敢駕車，還不是我的車，還忘了開車燈。

此刻回想，實在危險，呵呵……

其實，還挺想念的……

想念那些朋友，那樣的氛圍，還有那樣的心情。

我把照片都好好的保存了，07年的回憶。

我不知道爲什麽突然想起。

可能，覺得我是很多人生命中的路人，可是這些朋友會不會也是我生命中的路人。

留在我心裏的人，還真多呢~

也真慶幸有這些相交近十年的朋友，我們也二十一嵗了，不再是青少年了。

算算日子，我們踏入大學已經是第四個年頭了。

過去的三年，怎麽時間流逝得這麽快？

三年，我也交了一幫死黨。

我只希望，無論是這三年黨，還是十年黨，我們都還會是死黨！=D

110127

It's the sunrise when we were on the flight to Taipei.

Kinda unbelievable that 3 of us didn't sleep for the night and we're actually seeing the rising sun on the plane.

Indeed, we fall asleep once we entered the plane. XD

It's 2.30am now.

I feel so tired but I don't feel like I'm going to bed.

This is why I'm back to blogging.

I thought I will back to this around February. HAHA.

Anyways, the good time is passing with a rocket speed.

Which means I'm going back to the uni life soon, though there is another month to go.

Goodnight! =)

Finally it's the day.

I can't wait for it.

We have anticipated it for too long time~

Yet, it was too long!!

There are a lot of thoughts in my mind.

I wanna let them go, but they are still there.

FML is the only word I can say but I shouldn't go for a trip with a bad(?) mood.

Anyways, I'm coming, Taipei!!

110108

How creative is the people around the world to create EARPHONES.

I've been so thankful for it today.

I'm hiding myself.

From? Everything.

I pretended not listening to you.

I pretended everything has no relation to me.

I pretended to live in my own world.

It's not like I will be happier with your help.

It's not like I'm nothing without your help.

Take away your egoism, I'm great with it.

I don't need it, and I feel happy and relax.

How do I prove it?

I'm happy without telling anyone of you that I went for HK trip.

Can't you see it?

I feel damn relaxing, and I laughed a lot.

I miss it very much.

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说谎竟是为了让你舒心，这道理我还未参透。

110107

It's the 3rd post of the month.

I have too many to say but I have no idea for the starting.

The sky isn't full with sunshine all the time.

Same with our life, isn't it?

The moment we are enjoying very much, you might receive a bad news.

*Touch wood* but it's true.

What does this call? Ow~ Reality.

I'm drinking a bottle of Orange Juice, bought by grandma.

But it is too sweet for me.

Hmmm.. Too much sugar, made in Malaysia. =.=

The world never turns for you.

Doesn't mean it turns for money.

It's full of tricks and traps.

It will be yours only when you are complicated enough.

Why am I using the word 'complicated' instead of 'strong'?

Because being strong is a part of it.

Erm~ I don't like this post.

It's too dark, even for me.

110106

It's not the first time feeling the sadness for these 5 boys.

Always thinking how could they do this to Cassiopeia and divided them into 2 groups too.

I told Ms.YuhMiin this morning, I don't want to think too much of them.

Why? It's tiring.

Seeing the Cassiopeia fighting around, hurting everyone, comparing HoMin and JYJ.

The feeling sucks!

You have no idea how easily my tears can be dropped because of these tweets.

How could you trust that the Thanks to is written by themselves?

I don't believe it until they say the same thing on stage and in front of us. T.T

But I guess I kinda know what's the situation now.

We'll wait and see.

Always keep the faith is not just a joke, people.

You can't deny how huge is the influence of these 5 guys. XD

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Suffered of insomnia last night.

Ar~ It's because of the "Teh Tarik", no worries. =)

Hidden yourself in the darkness, I think of the past, suddenly.

Surprisingly, the memory flows back to few years ago, when I was still the secondary student.

It is not a good memory for me.

I mean the scenes that flooded me last night.

Teared for the night, anger that couldn't explode, and the feeling of not being trusted.

Wow. See, how bad is this feeling.

Luckily, I got it over and I appreciated it very much.

Honestly, I love my uni life more than my secondary school life.

The only thing I appreciated was my friends.

Until now, they are still with me.

How sweet are they? =)

110105

It's been months from my last post.

I'm kinda lazy and what caused me back to here today?

She is no other than Ms.YingMin.

In a sudden, I feel like to read her blog and I'm surprised that she is continuing with her blogging.

I was "Wow!". HAHA.

It's good actually.

But seriously, I'm surprised for another thing more.

How can her friends can't get to know about your relationship since you blogged every single little details about him! Oh Geez!

Still, it should be congratulated, right?

I'm getting excited for my Taiwan trip.

It's 3 people trip, though.

I miss all of you actually.

Stronger feeling to get together with you all.

But yea, I know it's impossible.

Anyways, HOW'S ABOUT THE BALI TRIP???? XD

I'm having a 3 - month long holiday.

Frankly, it's boring but I feel free.

I'm not the kind of people who like to play around or work hard on everything.

Even though I don't like to live without a goal, but I kinda like the relaxing moments.

Don't press yourself too much while you know you got a harder life after you graduate.

Enjoy the moment as a student.

Meanwhile, 2012 is coming soon too!! (Haha, believe it or not, don't take it serious)

I'm not that busy, actually.

24 hours will be at home, 12 hours will be facing facebook/twitter/kpop news.

Another 12 hours? Sleep. =.=

How boring is my life?

I know but I'm good with it. =)

I can be playful, depends who are you.

I can be a listener, depends who are you.

I can be a persuader, depends who are you.

I can be a chatter, depends who are you.

But I did a psycho test yesterday that Ms.Toh asked me.

What color am I? I chose gray.

The result was shocking me as it's 80% - 100% correct.

But, yea the result is part of me.

However, the result itself, I guess it will only be agreed by me myself. HAHA.

I post it out, and you read it.

Don't get shock, it's me. =)

GRAY: This color in all of it's shades indicates a person who is secretive, protective of the self, and wishes to be left alone. Grays like to fade into the background unseen. They despise being the center of attention and will shrink back when called on in class or if anyone brings attention to them.

A predominately gray aura indicates a loner, not so much out of preference but out of fear. Usually, grays have been so hurt or so disillusioned that they would prefer to be invisible. It's not uncommon for grays to be hermits, or to find one person that they care about to whom they will cling for all of their needs.

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사랑한단 말 못해

101022

Sometimes, I know we are feeling the sadness from the bottom our hearts.

No matter how, we have to accept the changes, the reality.

People around us are always not the same.

Neither me.

When I think to run away from somethings, but in fact somethings would run away from me too.

I forgot it's not only about you, but both sides.

If I'm telling you that I'm not feeling sad, it's a lie. =)

Lies do help a lot of people to feel good, but I didn't want to lie on myself.

From the bottom of m heart, I felt the abandoning, not from friends, I mean from some situations?

I really don't know how to explain but I hope it will leave me soon.

I don't want to have the bad(?) mood continues with me, it doesn't make the situation good but it will be getting worst.

I pray, and pray and pray again.

Hope the negative minds would be gone as soon as possible.

I ignored the feeling;

I ignored the happiness occurred because I'm not involved, but I have to be happy because of the happiness occurred.

I'm pretty sure no one understands for the previous sentence, but it's enough for myself.

People, you will be too selfish if you are not allowed others to be happy without you.

Wash your face, take a rest, refresh yourself, everything will be new and good!

God bless.

100829

You know what?

The one I hate most is human;

But the one I love most is still human.

I know it's contradicting with each other but you can't deny that human are so lovely sometimes.

I smiled when I typed these sentences.

I've been emotional for few times these days.

Not to say what, but I'm feeling sorry to my friends, maybe they knew or maybe they don't.

I don't care? Honestly, I'm not feeling care whether they know the reason or not because this is my personal feeling and I know this is such a selfish thinking.

There is reason, too.

This is why I hate human so much.

People know your feeling easily but they do not comfort you because they think you're naive.

People do not know you feeling but they will say somethings that hurt you without realising because they think you're strong and mature enough to accept their words.

All about dignity.

I'm sure the people around me knew that I have strong dignity.

Maybe they think I don't as I act like not caring for everything.

I can tell you how poor am I, how dramatic is my family but I didn't give the permission to you and say about me.

This is my deadline, I know but people don't know.

Sometimes, I blamed.

But I know if I let the negative feeling continuously controlling me, I'm sure I'm dead before giving chance in judging me.

I love to be human, honestly, I love to be a smart human but I know I'm not.

When people around me started to tell me: Don't say like that, you're smart, you just need to work hard.

Hey, guys.. I was actually wanted to say: Bullshit! You are actually looking down at me in your mind but as my friend, you need to give me a faith.

Don't deny it. The people in this world are just so realistic.

I learned about this, how long time ago? I don't know.

However, you gotta thanks these people.

Because of them, you can keep on challenging, until the day you success and prove to everyone: Yes, I did it.

The world actually say that: So what? People took the chances before you success.

And you will feel like: Ow, I'm too late.

And then people encourage you again: It's not too late, you still can fight for it.

And you will start your engine again and say to yourself: Yes, I'm still continuing in fighting my war.

All in all, human is such a nice beautiful word.

They fail us, they encourage us.

They make us cry, they make us smile.

They make us angry, they make us calm.

They make us disappointed, they give us hope in the future.

Am I speaking in a subjective way?

Perhaps. But obviously, this is PERSONAL BLOGGING.

And if you're not agree with me, just get your ass out of my blog, sorry to remind you in my last sentence of this blog post, and yes I'm purposely. =)