100131

It's the last day of January.
How do you feel?
I am wondering how could the time flies without noticing me.
Maybe I should say that I didn't appreciate time.

I feel so pressure, honestly.
There is a trip waiting for me but I didn't finish my study.
How could you study with an exciting mood?
While exciting, you have the tension with you..
I feel so hard...

I'm not in a good mood, obviously.
Maybe it's because I still have to study before trip?

I didn't complain much about it because it's my fault.
Jason keep on concerning about my study.
He scare that I have no enough time to study.
Haha.. I remember Yuhmiin said that we are the same type of human which is last minute person.
But, obviously she forgets that I'm not as smart as her.

Maybe I was smart before.
But I know that I'm not as smart as the old time.
My brain is losing its function..

I'm afraid of somethings.
But since haven't been checked, I have no idea about it. lolx..
Don't worry, I'm strong enough to face anything, I think. XD

100129

How would you describe me?
Haha.. I created a secret group for my Tawau friends..
You know, we are just too friend to be like a family..
The description about me make me laugh, it's just so true..
But, how would others think of me?

Here is the description from my Tawau's gang:
Rebellious figure that always believes in her state of mind.
Cold, evil-eyed, Hilarious at times, Gets the point.
Someone who is actually aware during various situations.
Facebook Freak / Stalker.
Tries to make her statements Points.

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You know what?
I always heard that I am a good listener or good adviser or good observer.
But this is the first time(?) I heard this kind of description..
Haha.. So, how's about yours to me?

100116

淩晨兩點鈡不睡覺，幹嗎去了？
呵~就是在電腦面前，看看video，打打字~

我現在人在西馬。
天亮做的事不再是睡覺或是玩電腦。
猜也猜得到是逛街啦~~哈哈哈……

滿期待明天的。
黃穎敏特地過來找我，陪我。
還蠻感動得啦~
她確實可以不必這麽麻煩坐那麽久的車，然後就爲了和我見上一面，然後第二天就回去。
這樣的朋友，哪裏找？？

我記得Aubery說過我很保護朋友。
事實上，我知道我是，只是從朋友聽見，還蠻奇怪的。
哈哈哈……沒什麽意思，只是不習慣吧！

你說，如果我沒了朋友會怎樣？
我無法想象，也不想想像。

我喜歡現在，知道嗎？
你看我在美裏的朋友多麽愛我（哈哈哈……承認吧！），當然我也愛她們啦！
沒有她們，我實在不懂美裏的生活該怎麽過。

你看在斗湖。
我過得多麽逍遙快活。
時不時喝個茶，看場電影或者兜個風……爽啊！
所以，你們都要乖乖呆在我身邊哦！
不然，我會傷心死的！=)

100107

I am missing someone a lot, can you guess who is it? XD
The whole day, I couldn't stop thinking of her and I know why.
I dreamed her in my dream actually and this caused my missing to her. =p

Didn't meet with her for one year.
I'm not sure of how is her appearance changing to, but I know she is still the one I know.
Thanks to the one who created phone so that we can contact with each other. =)

I received a call from her just now.
She told me that she isn't in a good mood.
I couldn't help much after I heard the reason.
What I can do is just pray and care for her.

Is she crying on the other side?
I couldn't get know.
I just feel like she was about to cry?
Hope that I guess wrong.
However, she has the reason to cry but I know she wouldn't cry in front of me, seldom.

Girl,
I miss you much.
Take care of yourself always, kay?
Everything will be alright soon. =)

100101：Two Thousands Ten!!

It's brand new year!!!
See my date there: 100101..
Hahaha.. how nice is this number, maybe we should go and buy 6d? lolx..

It wasn't as fun as what I thought in passing my last day of 2009.
Anyways, I was still with my friends although just few of them.

I was happy that I received quite numbers of greeting messages.
Especially from my best friends.. haha..
And when I received the message from YingMin and Roland, I shown to Eva.. I said: See, I got their messages~ hahaha..
I know it is childish, but I'm happy in playing it cause the reaction of Eva was so funny..
She even wanted to send message to them and ask them to greet her! lolx..

Hey, it's no more two double O nine..
Here comes two thousands ten!!
Looking forward on the brand new year..
What's the difference? Yea~ we are getting older.. hahahaha

Anyways,
I miss you, to the one who missed me.
Happy New Year, guys and girls!! XD

091231

I have to say goodbye to 2009, finally..?

I was listening to 2ne1's "I don't care".
A question comes into my mind again: Can I really don't care?
Lolx... What should I care, what shouldn't I care?
Can anybody hints me? =)

Fine.
I couldn't get the answer now.
I wish I don't have to think more and enjoy my life without these nonsense.
Get off from my life, I wish but I know it wouldn't.

*Smile
Hey~ cheer up.
It is not a big deal if it didn't meet your expectation.
It's really fine for me, anything.
Whatever~ I can only know what's going on in the future~~

Wooo...
I should think for my trip!
KahYee is joining us to Hong Kong!!
It's really make me feel so good!
I wish to always be with her when she needs a friend.
And this is one of the reason that I invite her to come with us..
I am really looking forward on our trip now!!
Wow~~~
All of my best friends are with me next year, the HK trip, the KK trip and maybe my birthday? =)

You don't know how I wish all of my best friends would celebrate my birthday with me but not early celebration or just a birthday song and message.
I remembered I said to Grace that I wouldn't cry during my birthday but in fact, if really all of you are celebrating with me, I couldn't make my promise of not dropping tears.. XD

I miss you guys, really!
Grace, I miss the time I quarrel with you. XD
Mich, I miss the time I bully you. XD
Nyiam, I miss the time you laugh with us. XD
Siew, I miss the time you always "hehe" there.. XD
Jac, I miss the time you always come to Senadin and accompany me. =)
Crys, I miss the time talk with you until we fall asleep at midnight. =)
Kee, I miss the time we always go out with Hsia. =)
Hsia, I miss the time we chat a lot and sharing many things with each other. =)

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Goodnight all...
I am waiting for a reply that wouldn't get.
Hehe.. anyways, sweet dream~

And, BYE YA 2009!!

091210

我在想一件事：什麽時候我才能真正呼吸自由的空氣？
太多的束縛，我沒有辦法活出自我。

我想要拿著照相機，看到什麽拍什麽。
我很想駕著車，在路上不顧自身的危險奔馳。
我很想做一樣事是沒有後顧之憂。

只可惜，這是不太可能的吧？

今天和媽媽說了一句：這樣的旅行，可能就此一次吧。
媽媽沒聼懂，反問我爲什麽。
我沒有回答。
怎麽回答？

每個朋友都知道我是個極愛自由之人。
可偏偏，該和我最親的人，卻不懂真正的我。
他們只需要我做他們理想中的孩子，順著他們的意思，好讓他們少煩點。

我順了，心會痛。
不順了，心會有愧疚。

真害怕，以後我有能力自己生活的時候，我會把什麽忽略了。

091209

今天成績出了，沒什麽意外。
從考場出來，就大概知道了自己的成績。
感謝上帝，沒有讓我失望。

有時候真痛恨自己的直覺。
直覺中，會有一科需要重考。
直覺中，把重考的時間表都抄好了。
直覺中，把機票來回都想好了。

只是能不能幸運到改機票是免費的？
真希望能夠如此，這樣就省下了少少。=)

心裏其實沒有多大的起伏，我是說真的。
只是希望有人和我分享這一刻的心情吧~
無奈的心情……

啊~有誰願意把課本寄過來斗湖嗎？
縂不能只是讀Lecture Notes就想過關吧？
另外三科讓我這樣矇過關了，可這一次不可能吧？

哦！那麽回去的那兩天一夜，要住哪裏？
失策……失策……慢慢想吧！
我累了，晚安。

091207

最近新出的電影都是大製作，很吸引別人去看的。
2012、Ninja Assassin、Twilight，哈~我全部都還沒看。
爲什麽？沒人約我去看咯！
三部裏有兩部是看不成的，唉~真衰！

因爲在家裏悶，Streamyx又從來不眷顧我們斗湖消費者，開個網頁要幾分鈡，受得了嗎？
結果，跑去看我之前download的電影。

看了The Curious Case of Benjamin Button。
如果這事情發生在我身上，我還真不知道會是怎樣的一個人生。

赤壁下。
這永遠是最讓我佩服的電影之一。
之前看赤壁上的時候，那種澎湃的心情，真的有讓我覺得活在亂世也不錯，至少那滿腔熱血不會無用武之地。
到底是電影音效做得太好，還是電影院的音響太好導致我有這種想法？
但，沒有了歷史，這些都不會呈現出來。

看著下集，很多想法纏繞在心頭。
仗一打，犧牲的都是人命，看得心很酸。
話説得再衛冕堂皇，看在我眼裏，不過是草菅人命，踏著別人的生命來享受自己的欲念。

十萬大軍，全軍覆沒，你能想象嗎？
畫面是很壯觀，只可惜三國的亂仗，最後誰也沒得益。

一直以來都在想像火燒連環船。
看三國的時候想一次，覺得這計謀太絕了。
看鳳于的時候想一次，覺得鳳鳴對容恬的絕對信任，而向若言獻此策，那阿曼江整片的火海，讓人心生佩服，佩服鳳鳴的睿智，有空真該重讀一次。
終于，看赤壁的時候，不用想了，它就這麽呈現給我。
唯一想到的詞只有：人命。

(噢~我想會有很多人讀不懂鳳于那一部份，其實我是寫給特定的人看的，看不懂就Skip吧！)

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人活在世上，爲什麽會有二心？
我不能保證自己對任何的人、事、物都會是一心一意。
可是我盡量讓自己忠誠于某些。
人啊~是世界上最聰明的生物，卻也是最笨的生物。

091204

十二月了，時間過得很快。
快得讓我發現原來我身邊的朋友，原來都已經認識了好幾年。
記得有一兩次和秀她們聊天，天啊！我們認識了兩年。

這兩年，說真的，還蠻感謝遇上的朋友是她們。
真心相待，無話不談。
在她們面前，我是最放鬆的。
我知道她們知道那是我。

我的改變是好的吧？
至少我覺得自己給人的第一印象不是冷冷的，還算不錯吧？呵呵呵……

有時候很想念她們啊！
不用多說就知道我想做什麽……
隨便一個笑，都知道我想說什麽。
雖然偶爾的揶揄，可是還是那樣開心。
哈哈……我們自有我們的一套溝通方法。
真不曉得如果我們真住在一起，會是怎樣……
我想，會是吵死人吧？哈哈哈……

其實此刻的我，不是在想她們啦~
只是不知道爲什麽手不由自主地就把這些打出來了。
也好，不需要把不應該說的說出來。
只會為自己增加無謂的煩惱~ =)