It's a secret that I can't tell until the day I'm away from this place.
I'm scared; I'm regretting; I'm guilty.
And I don't wish to be punished.
How greedy am I?
The only one that I can tell to, is always God.
He can always listen to my secret and give me advises.
I appreciate that He will be with me, every time.
I wish I could calm down but I can't.
Probably I'm still being punished by God about what I've done.
It's a lie that can never tell.
I want to be forgiven.
I want to be safe.
I want to get this over.
I don't know.
Even I got the guarantee from the person I should have.
But I really have no idea.
I miss a friend a lot at that moment but this friend is not the one can help me.
I just need some voices.
And this friend is the only one who jumped into my mind, second after God.
At last, I still speak to God only.
He will always listen to me after all.
But I feel the scariness, still.
I guess I made a big sin.
Please forgive me.