十一月來了。
代表著我的考試要來了。
更重要的是：我的假期也要來了！
興奮啊！
我腦裏突然“硼”出一個問題：人爲什麽要有朋友？
人一定要有朋友才能生存嗎？
有點驚訝這些問題出自于自己的腦。
畢竟自己是多麽清楚“朋友”對我來説是多麽的重要。d(^_^)b
可是，這幾天的事讓我不得不重新看待人的朋友的定義。
可能很多人不知道，其實我很喜歡待在美裏呢！
你問我爲什麽？
我大概只能回答：這裡的人、事、物都讓我很舒心。
當然，偶爾還是會有困擾。
可是，我知道在這裡我遠離的是什麽。
回到斗湖，見的一些人都不知道能不能稱之爲朋友。
至少在這裡，我知道這一班人，不管我什麽時候無聊，都能去找（除了半夜哦~）。
有時候，我們真像一家人，不是嗎？
打打鬧鬧的，互相假假的挑撥離間，只是大家都懂彼此的個性。
可以說生活了快兩年了，還能不懂嗎？=)
可是，回到去，我有時候真的不知道要找誰。
可是，最後還是得回的，不是嗎？
西馬的？
或許會找吧？
自己去的時間也不長，大家也不常聯絡，要他們特地抽時間來找我，好像很唐突。
不知道自己爲什麽會有這樣的想法，可能我不習慣帶麻煩給人家。
所以呢？
還是和姐姐逛逛就好了吧？哈哈……
可能是現在的心情沒怎麽好吧。
所以想法都開始有點不好。
等自己舒心點，或許就會像自己多一點了。
Monday, November 2, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
091028
今天浪費了一整天。
我應該要讀書的，可是卻做了無謂的事。
雖無謂，可是卻讓我發現一些事，還不錯。
吃完了晚飯，我坐在電腦面前。
謝謝瑩說她看了他的status兩次才看明白。
然後我跑去看，哈哈……原來是這回事啊~
過後又是說我們都是適合寫華語。
是嗎？
我一直是認爲因爲我的英文不好，所以表達能力也不好。
至於華語，我也只是跟著心裏面想說的話而寫，沒什麽刻意。
然後，看了那status，我也有感而發。
“有時候，能選擇是一種幸運；能擁有是幸福；會失去，或許是解脫。”
這世上，只有“生老病死”是不能選擇的，對吧？
所以，能選擇，是上天賜的，而我們是幸運的。
能擁有，固然是幸福的。
只是，幸福能維持多久？
我不知道。
或者說，你能擁有多久，就幸福多久？
可是，這真的是你能所擁有的嗎？
真的是屬於你的嗎？
我在想：什麽是屬於我的？
我擁有什麽？哪天我不再擁有了呢？
那天我不再擁有了，那就是失去了。
失去了的，還是我的幸福嗎？
不是，既然會失去的，那必定不是我的幸福。
既然不是我的幸福，那我就是從中解脫了。
可能我曾經幸福。
只是那是短暫性的，那我何必佔著它呢？
我相信，是我的就是我的，不是我的，何必強求？
既來之，則安之，不是嗎？
我應該要讀書的，可是卻做了無謂的事。
雖無謂，可是卻讓我發現一些事，還不錯。
吃完了晚飯，我坐在電腦面前。
謝謝瑩說她看了他的status兩次才看明白。
然後我跑去看，哈哈……原來是這回事啊~
過後又是說我們都是適合寫華語。
是嗎？
我一直是認爲因爲我的英文不好，所以表達能力也不好。
至於華語，我也只是跟著心裏面想說的話而寫，沒什麽刻意。
然後，看了那status，我也有感而發。
“有時候，能選擇是一種幸運；能擁有是幸福；會失去，或許是解脫。”
這世上，只有“生老病死”是不能選擇的，對吧？
所以，能選擇，是上天賜的，而我們是幸運的。
能擁有，固然是幸福的。
只是，幸福能維持多久？
我不知道。
或者說，你能擁有多久，就幸福多久？
可是，這真的是你能所擁有的嗎？
真的是屬於你的嗎？
我在想：什麽是屬於我的？
我擁有什麽？哪天我不再擁有了呢？
那天我不再擁有了，那就是失去了。
失去了的，還是我的幸福嗎？
不是，既然會失去的，那必定不是我的幸福。
既然不是我的幸福，那我就是從中解脫了。
可能我曾經幸福。
只是那是短暫性的，那我何必佔著它呢？
我相信，是我的就是我的，不是我的，何必強求？
既來之，則安之，不是嗎？
091028
時間一天一天地過，我卻什麽都還沒做。
自己果然還是那種“不見棺材不流淚”，不到最後一分鐘都不要努力的人。
唉~夜已深……
我的雙眼早就已經開不到了，可是就是不甘願去睡。
不想去想爲什麽不睡。
其實不用想也知道的……
只是想要否認而已~
有一件事是想和你們分享的。
可是，想了一想，還是不要在大庭廣衆之下說出來。
一來省了誤會，二來省了謠言。
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人與人之間，到底該怎麽相處才能達到平衡？
遷就？如果只是單一的遷就，縂有一天還是會出問題的。
可不是嗎？
你看，我身邊的麻煩可讓我們都頭痛了。
誰理她啊！看著都煩~
真想罵她粗口，算了，保持形象。（雖然早就沒有什麽形象的了~哈哈哈）
算了，晚安。
自己果然還是那種“不見棺材不流淚”，不到最後一分鐘都不要努力的人。
唉~夜已深……
我的雙眼早就已經開不到了，可是就是不甘願去睡。
不想去想爲什麽不睡。
其實不用想也知道的……
只是想要否認而已~
有一件事是想和你們分享的。
可是，想了一想，還是不要在大庭廣衆之下說出來。
一來省了誤會，二來省了謠言。
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人與人之間，到底該怎麽相處才能達到平衡？
遷就？如果只是單一的遷就，縂有一天還是會出問題的。
可不是嗎？
你看，我身邊的麻煩可讓我們都頭痛了。
誰理她啊！看著都煩~
真想罵她粗口，算了，保持形象。（雖然早就沒有什麽形象的了~哈哈哈）
算了，晚安。
Monday, October 26, 2009
091026：放縱
何謂放縱？爲何放縱？
情感放縱？放縱情感？
我討厭放縱自己的人。
這是我的實話。
我想不透，是爲了什麽而放縱？
愁？愁什麽？
不想去了解。
不想去勸解。
不想去化解。
總歸一句：這不是我能理的事，儘管我不喜歡，真的很不喜歡。
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或許該說，我不想讓人覺得我太多管閒事了。
所以，我才不去理吧~
所以，我才會常說：那是你的選擇。
不想，真的不想。
不想到最後有一種“好心做壞事”的想法纏繞在心。
儘管我學會了樂觀，可是骨子裏還是我。
我還是那個多慮的人……
我的最終想法不過是想努力經營好每一段友情。
儘管曾經破裂，或已經破裂，我只要看到你們好就好。
我不該干涉，也干涉不了別人的生活。
我還是過好自己的吧！
情感放縱？放縱情感？
我討厭放縱自己的人。
這是我的實話。
我想不透，是爲了什麽而放縱？
愁？愁什麽？
不想去了解。
不想去勸解。
不想去化解。
總歸一句：這不是我能理的事，儘管我不喜歡，真的很不喜歡。
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或許該說，我不想讓人覺得我太多管閒事了。
所以，我才不去理吧~
所以，我才會常說：那是你的選擇。
不想，真的不想。
不想到最後有一種“好心做壞事”的想法纏繞在心。
儘管我學會了樂觀，可是骨子裏還是我。
我還是那個多慮的人……
我的最終想法不過是想努力經營好每一段友情。
儘管曾經破裂，或已經破裂，我只要看到你們好就好。
我不該干涉，也干涉不了別人的生活。
我還是過好自己的吧！
Sunday, October 25, 2009
091025：許願
倘若有一天，我向佛祖許願，能實現嗎？
倘若有一天，我向耶穌許願，會實現嗎？
兩者都是世上的神，而我只是個凡人。
世上活著許許多多比我還需要祂們，可是我還是忍不住想向祂門許個小小願望。
什麽願望？
很簡單，就許我一個未來。
一個我心裏的未來。
看似簡單，實際上我是貪心的，對吧？
如果我說我要我的未來有身份，有地位，有財富，有情，那這個真不是一個小的願望。
四者選一？
呵呵~ 那我該選擇哪一個？
或許是由情況替我選擇吧~
那麽就是順其自然了。
可是，有誰會這麽甘心，任由命運帶著你？
我可能就不是其中一員了。
我心裏有個夢，一個不太可能會實現，卻每每讓自己留著一絲希望的夢。
這真的是很私人的秘密了，不能說。XD
我的神，我的主，
請許我一個未來吧~
倘若有一天，我向耶穌許願，會實現嗎？
兩者都是世上的神，而我只是個凡人。
世上活著許許多多比我還需要祂們，可是我還是忍不住想向祂門許個小小願望。
什麽願望？
很簡單，就許我一個未來。
一個我心裏的未來。
看似簡單，實際上我是貪心的，對吧？
如果我說我要我的未來有身份，有地位，有財富，有情，那這個真不是一個小的願望。
四者選一？
呵呵~ 那我該選擇哪一個？
或許是由情況替我選擇吧~
那麽就是順其自然了。
可是，有誰會這麽甘心，任由命運帶著你？
我可能就不是其中一員了。
我心裏有個夢，一個不太可能會實現，卻每每讓自己留著一絲希望的夢。
這真的是很私人的秘密了，不能說。XD
我的神，我的主，
請許我一個未來吧~
Monday, October 19, 2009
091019：始終只有黑夜
我躲在黑夜裏，等待著黑暗給我一些動力。
呵呵~不就是做功課嗎？ （倒地了吧？）
陷入迷茫，似乎是最近常發生的事。
爲了什麽？
前途？金錢？還是……
沒有多餘的心思去想未來，因爲我連現在都顧不好。
我果然還是喜歡黑暗的。
雖然我不認爲自己很黑暗。
可是，我常把一句話挂在嘴上：我沒說我是好人。
喜歡一個人在晚上走回家。
望著時好時坏的路燈，我笑。
因爲它就好像知道我的心情一樣，時好時坏。
慢慢的步行回家，我很享受，儘管朋友會認爲很危險。
我思考的終點是我家，收拾心情，不讓坏情緒影響我的生活。
有人害怕黑暗。
我不是不怕，或許只有心虛的時候吧~
很多時候，我都是把黑夜當成朋友。
因爲唯有夜幕降臨，我的思考才有點方向，卻又帶點失望。
還不至於絕望，我說過，我已學會了樂觀。
什麽是絕望？
我沒經歷過，也不想，會是撕心裂肺的吧？
我才不要~！^^
扯遠了~
又是一個功課夜~
陪伴著我的，依舊只是黑夜。
哦~還有我的電腦~
加油~我的朋友們！
XOXO,
呵呵~不就是做功課嗎？ （倒地了吧？）
陷入迷茫，似乎是最近常發生的事。
爲了什麽？
前途？金錢？還是……
沒有多餘的心思去想未來，因爲我連現在都顧不好。
我果然還是喜歡黑暗的。
雖然我不認爲自己很黑暗。
可是，我常把一句話挂在嘴上：我沒說我是好人。
喜歡一個人在晚上走回家。
望著時好時坏的路燈，我笑。
因爲它就好像知道我的心情一樣，時好時坏。
慢慢的步行回家，我很享受，儘管朋友會認爲很危險。
我思考的終點是我家，收拾心情，不讓坏情緒影響我的生活。
有人害怕黑暗。
我不是不怕，或許只有心虛的時候吧~
很多時候，我都是把黑夜當成朋友。
因爲唯有夜幕降臨，我的思考才有點方向，卻又帶點失望。
還不至於絕望，我說過，我已學會了樂觀。
什麽是絕望？
我沒經歷過，也不想，會是撕心裂肺的吧？
我才不要~！^^
扯遠了~
又是一個功課夜~
陪伴著我的，依舊只是黑夜。
哦~還有我的電腦~
加油~我的朋友們！
XOXO,
Saturday, September 19, 2009
090919
Something happened.
I really don't wanna say more about it.
What I can say now is just we shouldn't expect on the hopeless people.
I believe there is a return on you.
If you are still trying to do the same things again, I swear that I will send you to the jail even though I need to pay out something!
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It's another tuition free week again.
I wonder what should I do now..
I have debate, accounting and C.I.B presentation in the next 2 weeks.
Be prepared in 2 weeks time, I know I could.
But I'm just so lazy now.
I have been busy for 3 weeks, I think.
Non-stop busy time for us, luckily it's over now.
Now it's a little break time.
Enjoy? Not.
I received my result of Accounting Managerial 101.
Although it was just a mid-term, but it costs me 35%.
And now, I get a bad result although it is in my expectation.
What else can I say?
Thanks God.
Everyone is leaving for their holiday.
I'm still staying in Miri for my holiday.
Haha.. I feel good in Miri as I don't have to worry so much about others.
I hope to see my dad and mom here without worry so much at hometown.
When can we free from troubles?? I have no idea.
Let's God leads us to the peace.
Maybe we will move again next semester.
Why? We couldn't stand for one of my housemates.
Because of her, all of us are moving out.
Haha.. maybe you will ask why isn't she moves?
But we all know that is impossible.
It's fine for me as long as I have place to live.
Take care ya, my friends.
I would like to stay peace in Miri, hope so.
Should know that troubles come to find you but not you find the trouble. =)
XOXO,
I really don't wanna say more about it.
What I can say now is just we shouldn't expect on the hopeless people.
I believe there is a return on you.
If you are still trying to do the same things again, I swear that I will send you to the jail even though I need to pay out something!
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It's another tuition free week again.
I wonder what should I do now..
I have debate, accounting and C.I.B presentation in the next 2 weeks.
Be prepared in 2 weeks time, I know I could.
But I'm just so lazy now.
I have been busy for 3 weeks, I think.
Non-stop busy time for us, luckily it's over now.
Now it's a little break time.
Enjoy? Not.
I received my result of Accounting Managerial 101.
Although it was just a mid-term, but it costs me 35%.
And now, I get a bad result although it is in my expectation.
What else can I say?
Thanks God.
Everyone is leaving for their holiday.
I'm still staying in Miri for my holiday.
Haha.. I feel good in Miri as I don't have to worry so much about others.
I hope to see my dad and mom here without worry so much at hometown.
When can we free from troubles?? I have no idea.
Let's God leads us to the peace.
Maybe we will move again next semester.
Why? We couldn't stand for one of my housemates.
Because of her, all of us are moving out.
Haha.. maybe you will ask why isn't she moves?
But we all know that is impossible.
It's fine for me as long as I have place to live.
Take care ya, my friends.
I would like to stay peace in Miri, hope so.
Should know that troubles come to find you but not you find the trouble. =)
XOXO,
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
090909
I was supposed to do my Accounting revision now.
But I have no motivation at all..
I have been very busy for past 2 weeks, and still going to be busy in the following weeks.
What a tough degree life~
I am running out of time and yet I'm still wasting my time~
What the heck!
I just feel so guilty but I can't control myself.
Today, I just know how important is water.
The first time, I face water supply problem in Miri.
My mom called me when she saw my status in Facebook.. lolx. my mom was just so funny..
I couldn't concentrate on doing tutorial works as I haven't bath that time.
But I still have no motivation to start it.. *sigh
There are some words I would like to say to my friends:
(Just identify yourself)
Today, I received a call from you.
I'm glad to hear you will be having a tough but good life in that university although I know not much about it.
Study hard, I know you can!
Sorry that couldn't talk much to you today as the time not allow me to talk more.
And you?
At first, saying that will study Law.
After that, prefer accounting.
Again, chose HELP university but then still feel like not interested in Law.
I thought you will call me last Saturday?
Aiks.. no matter what is your decision, I will always support you as long as that is your decision.
Hey..
We have quite a long time didn't skype, right?
Kinda miss you laugh~ XD
And I promised will call you after my busy time..
But I'm still in a busy mode..
Feel like wanna damn the assignments and assessments!!
This people, never contact me if I don't find her!
Aiks.. how are you?????!!!!
Seems like never chat and talk after the last call from SKYPE huh??
Aiks... let's talk again when all of us are free~
When did I talk to you the last time?
Lolx.. the accidentally call.
I was busy on submitting my marketing assignment that time.
Aiks.. Although not really like your life now, but hopefully that you can handle your study..
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The first tuition free week has passed.
The first day of my tuition free week was I took my shower early in the morning at 6am~ XD
Hahaha.. Every friend was shocked about that.
And I slept at 7am.. good experience huh?
Hehehe.. might wondering why am I taking shower at that late(or early)?
I talk with my friend from 11.30pm on skype..
Shhhh.. I don't think she knows that I haven't take shower that time.. hehehe..
And then rush for assignments..
Sleep at 3 or 4 or 5am everyday~
Kinda tired but shuang~~ lolx...
And now, my second tuition free week is coming~
Hope that I can back to normal life. *wink*
Goodnightz!
XOXO,
But I have no motivation at all..
I have been very busy for past 2 weeks, and still going to be busy in the following weeks.
What a tough degree life~
I am running out of time and yet I'm still wasting my time~
What the heck!
I just feel so guilty but I can't control myself.
Today, I just know how important is water.
The first time, I face water supply problem in Miri.
My mom called me when she saw my status in Facebook.. lolx. my mom was just so funny..
I couldn't concentrate on doing tutorial works as I haven't bath that time.
But I still have no motivation to start it.. *sigh
There are some words I would like to say to my friends:
(Just identify yourself)
Today, I received a call from you.
I'm glad to hear you will be having a tough but good life in that university although I know not much about it.
Study hard, I know you can!
Sorry that couldn't talk much to you today as the time not allow me to talk more.
And you?
At first, saying that will study Law.
After that, prefer accounting.
Again, chose HELP university but then still feel like not interested in Law.
I thought you will call me last Saturday?
Aiks.. no matter what is your decision, I will always support you as long as that is your decision.
Hey..
We have quite a long time didn't skype, right?
Kinda miss you laugh~ XD
And I promised will call you after my busy time..
But I'm still in a busy mode..
Feel like wanna damn the assignments and assessments!!
This people, never contact me if I don't find her!
Aiks.. how are you?????!!!!
Seems like never chat and talk after the last call from SKYPE huh??
Aiks... let's talk again when all of us are free~
When did I talk to you the last time?
Lolx.. the accidentally call.
I was busy on submitting my marketing assignment that time.
Aiks.. Although not really like your life now, but hopefully that you can handle your study..
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The first tuition free week has passed.
The first day of my tuition free week was I took my shower early in the morning at 6am~ XD
Hahaha.. Every friend was shocked about that.
And I slept at 7am.. good experience huh?
Hehehe.. might wondering why am I taking shower at that late(or early)?
I talk with my friend from 11.30pm on skype..
Shhhh.. I don't think she knows that I haven't take shower that time.. hehehe..
And then rush for assignments..
Sleep at 3 or 4 or 5am everyday~
Kinda tired but shuang~~ lolx...
And now, my second tuition free week is coming~
Hope that I can back to normal life. *wink*
Goodnightz!
XOXO,
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
090811
It's 1am now.
I should be lying on my bed and start to sleep.
But initially, I have something to take care of.
In fact, it doesn't matter with me.
I'm just kepo.. lolx..
But since it is my friend's matter, then I will concern about her.
Honestly, I'm not from a rich and even can say poor for recent situation.
What I can say to my parents is: Thank You.
No matter how hard is the situation we face, both of them are still supporting my sister and me to study in a better environment and university.
I know they are right and still keep their promise till now.
My sister is studying in Bachelor of Law in Bond University.
An university that is high course fees and high living expenses which are scaring everyone of going for it.
$3300 for one unit + Living expenses = $$$$
I bet everyone will not think of it after seeing the amount of needed to study there.
But, thanks God that my parents did not think for the same way too.
I rather we are suffering for now than we graduated from a not really good Uni and low-knowledge of our major and then earn RMX00.00 per month.
Who can tell me that when can I earn back my fees and money? lolx..
Hmm... Have no idea what am I talking about here.
Goodnight~!
XOXO,
I should be lying on my bed and start to sleep.
But initially, I have something to take care of.
In fact, it doesn't matter with me.
I'm just kepo.. lolx..
But since it is my friend's matter, then I will concern about her.
Honestly, I'm not from a rich and even can say poor for recent situation.
What I can say to my parents is: Thank You.
No matter how hard is the situation we face, both of them are still supporting my sister and me to study in a better environment and university.
I know they are right and still keep their promise till now.
My sister is studying in Bachelor of Law in Bond University.
An university that is high course fees and high living expenses which are scaring everyone of going for it.
$3300 for one unit + Living expenses = $$$$
I bet everyone will not think of it after seeing the amount of needed to study there.
But, thanks God that my parents did not think for the same way too.
I rather we are suffering for now than we graduated from a not really good Uni and low-knowledge of our major and then earn RMX00.00 per month.
Who can tell me that when can I earn back my fees and money? lolx..
Hmm... Have no idea what am I talking about here.
Goodnight~!
XOXO,
Thursday, August 6, 2009
090806
It's August now.
How am I? Good? So so? Bad?
Hmm...
The studies are going well, so far.
Miri life is just so so.. as we have nothing much to enjoy.
The weather is very hot now.. and full of haze everywhere.
We went to have Sushi King as our dinner due to it's new in Miri.
But really disappointed on the services and food as well.
I can accept the food is not nice but I couldn't accept the attitude of the waiters and waitresses there~ OMG<< My comment!
Everyone is ill now.
Do you know what is the different between ill and sick?
Lolx.. I bet you all will say ILL is more serious than SICK, right?
From what I understand from my CIB lecturer, SICK is near dead while ill is just ill.. hahaha..
So, when you said you are sick, mean that you are nearly dead, so don't make mistake anymore~ ^^
I think I have fully recovered from fever/coughing/soar throat~!
Yaahoooo!!!! That's great.
But the bad weather not allow me to eat fried foods..
I'm afraid that soar throat will come and find me again...
Since there is first dead case caused of H1N1 in Miri, Curtin is offering free mask at campus.
But I failed to get it because there is out of stock.. lolx..
It's cool to see all wearing mask in the campus.. hahahaha..
Looks fun but take this case seriously..
It's our lives..
Drink more water and take care ya, everyone!
XOXO,
How am I? Good? So so? Bad?
Hmm...
The studies are going well, so far.
Miri life is just so so.. as we have nothing much to enjoy.
The weather is very hot now.. and full of haze everywhere.
We went to have Sushi King as our dinner due to it's new in Miri.
But really disappointed on the services and food as well.
I can accept the food is not nice but I couldn't accept the attitude of the waiters and waitresses there~ OMG<< My comment!
Everyone is ill now.
Do you know what is the different between ill and sick?
Lolx.. I bet you all will say ILL is more serious than SICK, right?
From what I understand from my CIB lecturer, SICK is near dead while ill is just ill.. hahaha..
So, when you said you are sick, mean that you are nearly dead, so don't make mistake anymore~ ^^
I think I have fully recovered from fever/coughing/soar throat~!
Yaahoooo!!!! That's great.
But the bad weather not allow me to eat fried foods..
I'm afraid that soar throat will come and find me again...
Since there is first dead case caused of H1N1 in Miri, Curtin is offering free mask at campus.
But I failed to get it because there is out of stock.. lolx..
It's cool to see all wearing mask in the campus.. hahahaha..
Looks fun but take this case seriously..
It's our lives..
Drink more water and take care ya, everyone!
XOXO,
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