091025：許願

倘若有一天，我向佛祖許願，能實現嗎？
倘若有一天，我向耶穌許願，會實現嗎？

兩者都是世上的神，而我只是個凡人。
世上活著許許多多比我還需要祂們，可是我還是忍不住想向祂門許個小小願望。
什麽願望？

很簡單，就許我一個未來。
一個我心裏的未來。
看似簡單，實際上我是貪心的，對吧？
如果我說我要我的未來有身份，有地位，有財富，有情，那這個真不是一個小的願望。

四者選一？
呵呵~ 那我該選擇哪一個？

或許是由情況替我選擇吧~
那麽就是順其自然了。

可是，有誰會這麽甘心，任由命運帶著你？
我可能就不是其中一員了。
我心裏有個夢，一個不太可能會實現，卻每每讓自己留著一絲希望的夢。
這真的是很私人的秘密了，不能說。XD

我的神，我的主，
請許我一個未來吧~

091019：始終只有黑夜

我躲在黑夜裏，等待著黑暗給我一些動力。
呵呵~不就是做功課嗎？ （倒地了吧？）

陷入迷茫，似乎是最近常發生的事。
爲了什麽？
前途？金錢？還是……
沒有多餘的心思去想未來，因爲我連現在都顧不好。

我果然還是喜歡黑暗的。
雖然我不認爲自己很黑暗。
可是，我常把一句話挂在嘴上：我沒說我是好人。

喜歡一個人在晚上走回家。
望著時好時坏的路燈，我笑。
因爲它就好像知道我的心情一樣，時好時坏。
慢慢的步行回家，我很享受，儘管朋友會認爲很危險。
我思考的終點是我家，收拾心情，不讓坏情緒影響我的生活。

有人害怕黑暗。
我不是不怕，或許只有心虛的時候吧~
很多時候，我都是把黑夜當成朋友。
因爲唯有夜幕降臨，我的思考才有點方向，卻又帶點失望。
還不至於絕望，我說過，我已學會了樂觀。

什麽是絕望？
我沒經歷過，也不想，會是撕心裂肺的吧？
我才不要~！^^

扯遠了~
又是一個功課夜~

陪伴著我的，依舊只是黑夜。
哦~還有我的電腦~

加油~我的朋友們！

XOXO,

090919

Something happened.
I really don't wanna say more about it.
What I can say now is just we shouldn't expect on the hopeless people.

I believe there is a return on you.
If you are still trying to do the same things again, I swear that I will send you to the jail even though I need to pay out something!

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It's another tuition free week again.
I wonder what should I do now..
I have debate, accounting and C.I.B presentation in the next 2 weeks.
Be prepared in 2 weeks time, I know I could.
But I'm just so lazy now.

I have been busy for 3 weeks, I think.
Non-stop busy time for us, luckily it's over now.
Now it's a little break time.
Enjoy? Not.

I received my result of Accounting Managerial 101.
Although it was just a mid-term, but it costs me 35%.
And now, I get a bad result although it is in my expectation.
What else can I say?
Thanks God.

Everyone is leaving for their holiday.
I'm still staying in Miri for my holiday.
Haha.. I feel good in Miri as I don't have to worry so much about others.
I hope to see my dad and mom here without worry so much at hometown.
When can we free from troubles?? I have no idea.
Let's God leads us to the peace.

Maybe we will move again next semester.
Why? We couldn't stand for one of my housemates.
Because of her, all of us are moving out.
Haha.. maybe you will ask why isn't she moves?
But we all know that is impossible.
It's fine for me as long as I have place to live.

Take care ya, my friends.
I would like to stay peace in Miri, hope so.
Should know that troubles come to find you but not you find the trouble. =)

XOXO,

090909

I was supposed to do my Accounting revision now.
But I have no motivation at all..

I have been very busy for past 2 weeks, and still going to be busy in the following weeks.
What a tough degree life~

I am running out of time and yet I'm still wasting my time~
What the heck!
I just feel so guilty but I can't control myself.

Today, I just know how important is water.
The first time, I face water supply problem in Miri.
My mom called me when she saw my status in Facebook.. lolx. my mom was just so funny..

I couldn't concentrate on doing tutorial works as I haven't bath that time.
But I still have no motivation to start it.. *sigh

There are some words I would like to say to my friends:
(Just identify yourself)

Today, I received a call from you.
I'm glad to hear you will be having a tough but good life in that university although I know not much about it.
Study hard, I know you can!
Sorry that couldn't talk much to you today as the time not allow me to talk more.

And you?
At first, saying that will study Law.
After that, prefer accounting.
Again, chose HELP university but then still feel like not interested in Law.
I thought you will call me last Saturday?
Aiks.. no matter what is your decision, I will always support you as long as that is your decision.

Hey..
We have quite a long time didn't skype, right?
Kinda miss you laugh~ XD
And I promised will call you after my busy time..
But I'm still in a busy mode..
Feel like wanna damn the assignments and assessments!!

This people, never contact me if I don't find her!
Aiks.. how are you?????!!!!
Seems like never chat and talk after the last call from SKYPE huh??
Aiks... let's talk again when all of us are free~

When did I talk to you the last time?
Lolx.. the accidentally call.
I was busy on submitting my marketing assignment that time.
Aiks.. Although not really like your life now, but hopefully that you can handle your study..

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The first tuition free week has passed.
The first day of my tuition free week was I took my shower early in the morning at 6am~ XD
Hahaha.. Every friend was shocked about that.
And I slept at 7am.. good experience huh?
Hehehe.. might wondering why am I taking shower at that late(or early)?
I talk with my friend from 11.30pm on skype..
Shhhh.. I don't think she knows that I haven't take shower that time.. hehehe..

And then rush for assignments..
Sleep at 3 or 4 or 5am everyday~
Kinda tired but shuang~~ lolx...

And now, my second tuition free week is coming~
Hope that I can back to normal life. *wink*

Goodnightz!

XOXO,

090811

It's 1am now.
I should be lying on my bed and start to sleep.
But initially, I have something to take care of.
In fact, it doesn't matter with me.
I'm just kepo.. lolx..
But since it is my friend's matter, then I will concern about her.

Honestly, I'm not from a rich and even can say poor for recent situation.
What I can say to my parents is: Thank You.
No matter how hard is the situation we face, both of them are still supporting my sister and me to study in a better environment and university.
I know they are right and still keep their promise till now.

My sister is studying in Bachelor of Law in Bond University.
An university that is high course fees and high living expenses which are scaring everyone of going for it.
$3300 for one unit + Living expenses = $$$$
I bet everyone will not think of it after seeing the amount of needed to study there.
But, thanks God that my parents did not think for the same way too.

I rather we are suffering for now than we graduated from a not really good Uni and low-knowledge of our major and then earn RMX00.00 per month.
Who can tell me that when can I earn back my fees and money? lolx..
Hmm... Have no idea what am I talking about here.

Goodnight~!

XOXO,

090806

It's August now.
How am I? Good? So so? Bad?

Hmm...
The studies are going well, so far.
Miri life is just so so.. as we have nothing much to enjoy.
The weather is very hot now.. and full of haze everywhere.

We went to have Sushi King as our dinner due to it's new in Miri.
But really disappointed on the services and food as well.
I can accept the food is not nice but I couldn't accept the attitude of the waiters and waitresses there~ OMG<< My comment!

Everyone is ill now.
Do you know what is the different between ill and sick?
Lolx.. I bet you all will say ILL is more serious than SICK, right?
From what I understand from my CIB lecturer, SICK is near dead while ill is just ill.. hahaha..
So, when you said you are sick, mean that you are nearly dead, so don't make mistake anymore~ ^^

I think I have fully recovered from fever/coughing/soar throat~!
Yaahoooo!!!! That's great.
But the bad weather not allow me to eat fried foods..
I'm afraid that soar throat will come and find me again...

Since there is first dead case caused of H1N1 in Miri, Curtin is offering free mask at campus.
But I failed to get it because there is out of stock.. lolx..
It's cool to see all wearing mask in the campus.. hahahaha..
Looks fun but take this case seriously..
It's our lives..

Drink more water and take care ya, everyone!

XOXO,

090731

First week of my semester 2 ended, finally.
I wanna rest, not badly.. just need some rest.

Guess that I should post a lot today?
Nope.. I think I just summarize some of my life here.. XD

In the end, I still back to Miri in order to continue my study.. =.=
I attended tutorials on time and start to feel that have to work hard on this semester.
Do not let my laziness lead me to a dead road.. hahaha..

Sell books buy books.
The first things what we always do on the new semester starts.
I sold some books for my friends~
Argh.. I think I should earn some commission.. hahahaha
Quite tired and the money is not mine even.. lolx..
It's okay if I could help my friend to sell off their books..

I have a long walk just now..
From my house to a friend of Aubery, then went to Ivy's house and then to Sandy's place.
Back to my house again, then to Aubery's friend, Ivy and then send Grace back to her house which placed nearby Village and then walk back again.. Wow!!
Seriously, I'm super duper tired.

Sitting in front of my laptop now, with an empty feeling.
Our house is so silent and empty today.
Just feel empty.
Hsia went back to her aunt's place for few days, every week I think.
Kee and Maro are not at home.
Luckily Kee just back...
Not so empty but still..

Just feel so empty after back to Miri.
I could not find a way..
Someone tell me please? Lolx..

Goodnight all.
Bye Bye, July. =)

XOXO,

090716

I have passed a tiring day.
But I feel good~ wakakaka..
I went to have a breakfast with my grandma and my aunts.

After that, I went to my aunt's shop which is selling spectacles.
Lolx.. my aunt asked me to choose which I like.. kekeke..
I rejected for twice but then she still ask me to choose.
I just choose one I like without seeing the price.. oh no!
So, I got a free spectacles from my aunt, thanks!
Hahahahaha.. help her to promote now~~

Reach home a while then out to fetch my mom.
Tired!!!!
After that fetch my another aunt and cousin, reach home at 5pm.

After take my dinner and send my cousin to tuition, I couldn't stop myself from falling asleep.
I was too tired.
I slept at 8pm.. Wow!!

Although woke up around 11pm, but I still feel tired..
Gonna sleep earlier today!

Oh~!
Hsia gonna take her supplementary test later morning~
Hsia, fighting!
Good luck to you ya~

XOXO,

090715

I'm not in a good mood these days, I admitted.
But I found my way to not always in a bad mood.
I don't want to angry because I know that is tired for me.
I just ignored, everything!

For the past two weeks, nothing special happened on me.
I went to the school anniversary.
I saw my teachers and talked with them.
Teacher Seah asked me why am I become slimmer =.=
I think teacher say so to me every time I back to meet with her.. hahahaha...

Friends that in hospital back to their own houses long time ago~ hahaha..
Good~ Take care!

Result released!
Quite shocked when I saw the result was just passed!
Wow! Luckily I passed all the units.

Timetable released!
I used two or three days to make it till I gonna be crazy.
Why?
Because the timetable is keep on changing!
What the F***!!!
At last, Irene done the timetable.. lolx..

But because of the late payment, I gonna register on next Monday.
Lolx????
Work so hard on the timetable but could not register at the first second!
What the F***!
I can't even know whether next week if there is any available seat for me.

I don't have the feeling to go out.
I'm still feel so down if I didn't watch the Family Outing!
That's really a good show that makes me laugh always, even the late night.

It's 2am now.
I have to wake up at 7am later to have a breakfast with my grandma.
It's the first time after I back from Miri.
Lolx.. Although it's a bit late but I'm still a good girl ^^

2 weeks later I will be at Miri again.
I feel a lot of pressure suddenly.

But I prefer stay at Miri now!
I feel like more pressure on me when I'm at Tawau.
Lolx.. Fighting!!

Goodnight.

XOXO,

090703：生日快樂

今天我生日，十九嵗。
收到很多人的祝福，很多是：Enjoy your day。
怎樣才算是Enjoy？

哈哈哈……還蠻開心的啦~
至少不是自己一個人過。
至少還有生日歌聼。
至少還是有些人會記得我的生日。

生日的第一餐，淩晨一點去吃KFC。
差點沒把我撐太飽，結果回到傢睡不着。

我想今年我的生日是最刺激的吧~
猜我跑去做什麽了？
斗湖證實有H1N1之後，還要確定其中兩個是我們的朋友，Jason盡朋友的義務送食物還有一些必需品給他們。
我也是有去！
刺激吧？？
H1N1哦~~雖然不是很嚴重的病，但是感染上了，也是不好過的。
在醫院的時候，你真的有一種抗拒踫到任何東西的心理狀態！
那一刻，我真的覺得我們很勇~ 哈哈哈哈……

日子開始有點難過了。
人都好像人間蒸發了~

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今年，有人忘了我的生日。
失望？=)


祝我生日快樂，晚安！

XOXO,